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100th Post!!!

After a little over 3 years, one 30 day blog challenge, 2 brain surgeries, 1 adrenalectomy, countless hospitalizations, and 120 pounds lost, I have finally posted 100 blog entries.

When I started this blog, I kept it just for my record, as a way to vent.  I was horrible at keeping journals but wanted to keep some kind of record of events.  At first, it was so my family and friends would have some idea of how I was feeling if I died before I got help.  It turned into a way to keep my friends and family informed of the progress I was making, and finally, a way to help others going through health crises.

I love going back and reading about the day I was finally diagnosed, or after I first lost weight after a surgery, or the 30 posts I wrote for the Cushing's Awareness Challenge last year.

It has been a less than awesome journey, but I have learned more that I ever could have in a text book in medical school, and most importantly, this entire experience has made me a stronger person, because it was my only choice to become one.

I have learned that being strong doesn't mean not crying about things that upset you, or not complaining when you end up in the hospital for the 3rd time in 3 months, but not giving up when it seems that your body is going to give up on you no matter what, to fight for a diagnoses and treatment, and to make it through this when it seemed like there was never an end in sight.

I never could have made it through everything in the last 3 years without the support of my friends and family.  I know this isn't the end of hard times, just a milestone for me and a chance to reflect.

I have a lot to get through in the next few months, including another surgery, and possibly a huge new diagnosis.  Thank you so much for reading over the last few years.  It was all worth it if I helped just one person through their journey with Cushing's Disease.

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  1. AnonymousFebruary 10, 2013 at 9:45 PM

    I'm quite sure you have helped more than one person through their journey with Cushing's so thank you! Betseebee

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