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Waiting

Sometimes it feels like I spend my whole life waiting.  Waiting for the next appointment, waiting for test results, waiting for the next time I have enough energy to see friends. I feel like I'm waiting for my "real" life to start.  A "normal" life.  One without illness.  One without hardship.  One it seems like everyone but me has.

I think this is one of those totally weird things that most, if not all people who have had Cushing's can relate to.  I remember saying this so much before I was diagnosed, I would be so thrilled to be diagnosed with ANYTHING, no matter how horrible, just to finally have an answer, for the wait to be over. I used to joke about how relieved I would be if someone found a tumor.  I actually WAS relieved when a tumor was found.  I called everyone I knew to celebrate.  It's so morbid, but it is an emotion so widely understood in the Cushing's community, at least to my knowledge.  You don't celebrate when you are diagnose…