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Cushing's Awareness Challenge - Day 5

Social media dominates most people's lives these days.  You see what everyone you know is up to, but the problem is, most people only post about the highlights of their lives.

You don't get to see the low points, the every day struggles.  You don't see what keeps them up at night with worry.

Everyone around me has a seemingly perfect life, they are traveling, getting job promotions, buying homes, dating, getting engaged, married, or having babies.  It is hard to scroll through and see all the things I thought I would be doing at this point in my life.

Instead,  I am applying for disability.  I am driving back and forth to doctor's appointments.  I am staying away from my grandmother because she is sick, and I can't get sick, not because it's an inconvenience, but because my life could be threatened by the flu.  I spend my nights awake worrying about money, or what could jeopardize my health further.

The majority of my posts on Facebook are "awareness" related.  Posting about Cushing's, or Rare Disease Day.  They don't get 100 likes, they barely get 10.  But maybe, one of those 10 people who see it might realize that they know someone that might have Cushing's.

What do you post on social media?  What do you wish you could see instead of the highlights of your friends' lives?
One of the fun thing I post on social media - this little guy!

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